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:: Friday, February 13, 2004 ::

letting go

God, I offer myself to Thee to build with me and to do with me as Thou wilt. Relieve me of the bondage of self that I may better do Thy Will. Take away my difficulties that victory over them may bear witness to those I would help of Thy Power, Thy Love, and Thy Way of Life. May I do Thy Will always.

Oh, that You would bless me indeed and enlarge my territory, that Your hand would always be with me, and that You would keep me from evil.

Thank You for keeping me sober today. Amen.

He humbled you by letting you hunger, then by feeding you with manna, with which neither you nor your ancestors were acquainted, in order to make you understand that one does not live by bread alone, but by every word that comes from the mouth of the LORD. -- Deuteronomy 8:3-8

Inaction, letting be, neither creating nor destroying—that is my evil. And also the knower as one without desire. -- Friedrich Nietzsche, Sämtliche Werke: Kritische Studienausgabe

Growing up means letting go of the dearest megalomaniacal dreams of our childhood. Growing up means knowing they can’t be fulfilled. Growing up means gaining the wisdom and skills to get what we want within the limitations imposed by reality—a reality which consists of diminished powers, restricted freedoms and, with the people we love, imperfect connections. -- Judith Viorst, Necessary Losses

Well, we finished up November ambulance billings yesterday at work. Now, on to December. I definitely think we'll be able to get this all caught up in a couple of weeks.

Everything was good yesterday except when my mortgage broker Bill called and told me that he'd been getting some calls about my bank balance being low. I definitely know it's low. I've been writing all these checks for earnest money, inspection fees, option fees, etc. I told him that my paycheck should be deposited today and that I was receiving a large check from a friend. I had to pay some credit card bills last night because it was the last day to do so, but I will try my best to spend as little as possible in the next week. At first, I was scared and angry about the whole conversation, but then I decided that was of little use. I gave it over to God. If He wants me to have the condo, it will all work out. I feel much more relaxed and serene now. It's really out of my control.

I stayed a little late at work, and afterwards, I met Mom and Dad at Outback Steakhouse in Arlington and gave Mom some beautiful roses that I had bought at Albertsons for Valentines Day. On my way home, I stopped by the main post office and mailed the Valentines Day cards to my grandmother, sister-in-law, and nieces and nephew. I came home and was dead tired and fell asleep again in front of the TV. Thank God it's Friday.

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