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:: Wednesday, February 11, 2004 ::

light

God, I offer myself to Thee to build with me and to do with me as Thou wilt. Relieve me of the bondage of self that I may better do Thy Will. Take away my difficulties that victory over them may bear witness to those I would help of Thy Power, Thy Love, and Thy Way of Life. May I do Thy Will always.

Oh, that You would bless me indeed and enlarge my territory, that Your hand would always be with me, and that You would keep me from evil.

Thank You for keeping me sober today. Amen.

Not every light is a true light;
To the wise the light of truth is light itself.
-- Tiruvalluvar, The Sacred Kural

Light is meaningful only in relation to darkness, and truth presupposes error. It is these mingled opposites which people our life, which make it pungent, intoxicating. We only exist in terms of this conflict, in the zone where black and white clash. -- Louis Aragon, “Preface to a Modern Mythology,” Paris Peasant

The light of memory, or rather the light that memory lends to things, is the palest light of all.... I am not quite sure whether I am dreaming or remembering, whether I have lived my life or dreamed it. Just as dreams do, memory makes me profoundly aware of the unreality, the evanescence of the world, a fleeting image in the moving water. -- Eugène Ionesco, Present Past Past Present

I was so lazy Monday afternoon. I could not get myself motivated to complete my homework until late in the day. I did finish it though and actually enjoyed it. Class was fine, but I drank a 20 ounce Vanilla Coke during the break and couldn't fall asleep until 2:00 AM that night.

Yesterday morning, I met a prospective interior designer for my condo at Starbucks on Knox. I liked her portfolio very much, and she seemed to have a very sweet and humble spirit about her. I'm going to talk to and get estimates from a couple of others first, but I hope I get to work with her. I think she'd end up saving me a lot of money and headache, too.

I began a new assignment back out at the City of Hurst yesterday. I like those people, and the work will be easy. At lunch, I went over to North East Mall to get a new belt that fits at Banana Republic and some interior decorating magazines at WaldenBooks. By about three o'clock, I began dragging because of the lack of sleep the night before, but I made it through the day.

I went to the Living Sober with HIV meeting. David led the meeting on managing our diseases - HIV and alcoholism. My sponsee and I went to Starbucks afterwards to discuss his Fourth Step. He's made good progress on his list of people and seems ready to progress to the next part. It's such a pleasure to actually see sponsees do the work and to see the light and life return to their eyes.

I came home and made some Crab Ravigote for dinner and watched Judging Amy before falling asleep. A good, full day indeed.

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