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:: Saturday, February 28, 2004 ::

relationships

God, I offer myself to Thee to build with me and to do with me as Thou wilt. Relieve me of the bondage of self that I may better do Thy Will. Take away my difficulties that victory over them may bear witness to those I would help of Thy Power, Thy Love, and Thy Way of Life. May I do Thy Will always.

Oh, that You would bless me indeed and enlarge my territory, that Your hand would always be with me, and that You would keep me from evil.

Thank You for keeping me sober today. Amen.

One realizes that human relationships are the tragic necessity of human life; that they can never be wholly satisfactory, that every ego is half the time greedily seeking them, and half the time pulling away from them. In those simple relationships of loving husband and wife, affectionate sisters, children and grandmother, there are innumerable shades of sweetness and anguish which make up the pattern of our lives day by day, though they are not down in the list of subjects from which the conventional novelist works. -- Willa Cather, The Borzoi 1925

Human relationships always help us to carry on because they always presuppose further developments, a future—and also because we live as if our only task was precisely to have relationships with other people. -- Albert Camus, Notebooks 1942-1951, January 1943 entry

It is explained that all relationships require a little give and take. This is untrue. Any partnership demands that we give and give and give and at the last, as we flop into our graves exhausted, we are told that we didn’t give enough. -- Quentin Crisp, How to Become a Virgin

A good and interesting past couple of days. I'm finally feeling much better physically, emotionally, and spiritually. On Thursday, I completed all the ambulance billing through the end of January at the City of Hurst, and they were very appreciative. I left work about one-thirty and drove back to Dallas. I stopped by Lambda to pick up the past week's deposits, and then went to Hunky's for lunch and by Crossroads Market to pick up some thank you notes. I then came home and finished counting the money, took the coins up to Kroger to be counted, and then deposited it all in the bank so it would hit by the last day of the month. I made some new contribution envelopes and went up to the six o'clock meeting to hear a great speaker, Dana.

Afterwards, I began feeling tired and sluggish again, so I came home and rested. I fell asleep fairly early but awoke in the middle of the night and stayed awake for a couple of hours. Yesterday, I began my new long-term assignment as a Sales Financial Analyst at Miller Brewing Company, and I'm very excited about it. I'm supporting sales and marketing for the Gulf Coast area. They just moved into new offices on the canal which are beautifully designed, and I have a window overlooking Lake Carolyn in Las Colinas. It will take me a couple of weeks to get up to speed, but I think I'm going to enjoy this project very much.

After work, I went to the six o'clock meeting which Joe led on unity and why we come to meetings. I was shocked to learn that our friend David passed away on Thursday. He took me waterskiing last summer, and we danced many times at the Round-Up. I will miss him. I met Tony last night at Loews Cityplace only to find that The Passion of the Christ was sold out. We walked over to the Magnolia at the West Village, but nothing of interest was showing anytime soon, so we walked back to our cars at Loews. We drove up to the Blockbuster on Lovers Lane and picked out Legally Blonde 2 to watch at his house. We stopped by Cici's Pizza for dinner on the way home, and then curled up on his couch to watch the movie which was very funny I thought. We curled up and kissed and snuggled before falling asleep pretty early.

This morning, I ran by home to change before meeting Rossdog for breakfast at Lucky's. He's intent on designing the hanging lamp I want for my new condo. We had a good visit with out waiter Patrick, too. I went by Starbucks for a White Chocolate Mocha and came home to take my meds. I went to the Men's AA Meeting which Will led on coming to meetings. Interesting how this topic keeps arising. I announced that a man from Cornell Correctional Facility in Wilmer had written to our group and asked for a sponsor, and then he announced that he was there. Nice guy. We visited for a while after the meeting. I also visited with Kelly who went with Dan and me to Amarillo last spring. I like him, and he said that he was going to call me soon to go hang out. I look forward to that. My friend and former mortgage broker Bill was at the meeting, but we didn't talk just because we were talking with others; however, I hope things are okay with him. I should talk to my sponsor Charlie before doing anything, but I feel guilty that I may have hurt him by switching to another lender.

I called my Realtor David after the meeting and went by the condo to pick up the keys he had left at the front. The contractor had finished up everything this week, and it was nice just being in there by myself for the first time. I've been cleaning up a bit and doing dishes this afternoon and talked to my Mom and to Jeff the guy visiting from Wilmer. Now, time to get on with the day.

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