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:: Tuesday, January 13, 2004 ::

hope

God, I offer myself to Thee to build with me and to do with me as Thou wilt. Relieve me of the bondage of self that I may better do Thy Will. Take away my difficulties that victory over them may bear witness to those I would help of Thy Power, Thy Love, and Thy Way of Life. May I do Thy Will always.

Oh, that You would bless me indeed and enlarge my territory, that Your hand would always be with me, and that You would keep me from evil.

Thank You for keeping me sober today. Amen.

"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans for goodness and not for calamity, that you may have a future and a hope." -- Jeremiah 29:11

Hope is itself a species of happiness, and, perhaps, the chief happiness which this world affords: but, like all other pleasures immoderately enjoyed, the excesses of hope must be expiated by pain; and expectations improperly indulged must end in disappointment. -- Samuel Johnson, Letter, June 8, 1762, Life of Samuel Johnson

“Hope” is the thing with feathers—
That perches in the soul—
And sings the tunes without the words—
And never stops—at all—
-- Emily Dickinson, “Hope” is the Thing with Feathers

Well, I've missed a couple of days of blogging, so time to catch up. After work on Friday, I went to the six o'clock AA meeting and prepared some deposit envelopes for the group. Joe and I were supposed to meet that night, but he awoke at four that morning and was running a fever so we postponed. I went to Chuck's house instead to watch the last four chapters of Angels in America with some of the gang instead. It was so great! Very, very moving. I wished Joe could be there with me snuggling on the couch while we were watching.

Anyway, Saturday morning, Rossdog and I met for breakfast at Lucky's. I then went by Kroger to restock and to pick up some things to make a special chicken soup for Joe to help heal him. I went to my Men's AA meeting which Bill S led on hope. My Realtor David and I met to look at condos afterwards, and we saw a beautiful one overlooking Turtle Creek. It's amazing what people can do with so little space when it's arranged well. I then went out to UTD to get a new notebook and to check out what books I would need this semester. After that, I went by Kroger to pick up a new canister for flour, some plastic containers, a candle, and some other items. Finally, I stopped by my Jiffy-Lube to get the remainders of my registration tag scraped off so that I could affix my new one I've had since early December.

Then I got to cooking -- a lot of vegetable chopping and that sort of stuff. I was looking up chicken soup recipes to make for Joe and came across a Peanut Butter Chicken Vegetable Soup which sounded perfect for him since he'll eat peanut butter straight out of the jar. It wasn't difficult to make either. I called my sponsor Charlie to check in and discuss some sort of resentment or jealousy I'd developed regarding Joe. It's amazing how this program works.

After I was through cooking, I went by Blockbuster to pick up a selection of movies for Joe and I to watch that night and then by Pier One to get yet another candle and candle stand since the one I bought at Target wouldn't fit my candle holder. Then I came home, showered, and cleaned up a bit for my cozy night in with Joe. I had planned to send the soup home with him, but we ended up having it for dinner, and it really was good. We watched 10 Things I Hate About You, a teen-age version of Shakespeare's The Taming of the Shrew. It was very good -- light-hearted and funny although neither Joe or I got a couple of the references since we're so long out of high school. He fell asleep against me during part of the movie and went home before ten o'clock. As I've said before, he has some reservations about something, and I'm not sure what they're about. I hope he loosens up soon. Perhaps he will when he feels better.

I chatted online for a while afterwards and ended up going down to Rob's on the next block to visit with him while he got dressed to go out with some friends. Then I came home and sacked out. I was whooped.

Sunday, I did little of anything except look for condos on Realtor.com and layout floorplans of what I would like mine to look like should I buy one. I picked out furniture online, researched doors and refinishing cast iron tubs. I didn't do much else on Sunday and barely remembered to eat. I can really get obsessed about things like this.

Yesterday, I went over the remainder of the journal entries in the reconciliation with Kyle and then spent most of the rest of the day preparing correcting entries. After work, I got some gas and then drove out to my first Advanced Regression Analysis class of the semester. I really like my professor and think the class will be very interesting. I even joined a study group for this semester. I did everything on my own last fall in statistics, so we'll see how that goes.

Anyway, today's another day. Onward and upward.

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